Im such a fool. I always tell people to move on if they are not getting the love they think they deserve but I keep holding on to him. Even when i know i like him so much more than he likes me. Even when i know that i care too much about him. Even when i know that i will end up hurting myself. More than i already do. But i keep holding on to him. Even if i try to let him go, i just cant. I keep being pushed to him.
I shouldnt. I shouldnt care about him. Or text him. Or even think about him. But i always end up missing him. Wanting to be with him. Wanting to hug him. I dont even know if he really is just playing with my feelings or if he feels something inside. I dont freaking know.
I hate being a fool or look stupid. Im stubborn. I know my worth. But him.. he makes me being the one trying. The one putting effort in whatever the hell we have. He makes me put my pride aside and be a fool running after him.
And the worst? I hate being like this. Im only like this to him. And its annoying how stupid he makes me be. Its annoying that i dont care about anything as long as i can be with him.
PS: dont be like me. You can be better