So… I’m kinda going through a heartbreak right now. But not really because he was never mine and I knew we wouldnt happen. I knew i would end up hurting but i fell for him. As always.
I was the only one trying. The only one putting effort into us. He ignored me and wasnt there for me when i needed him. I keep running back to him all the time and telling myself i shouldnt but i never learn. But im so done. I wont text him anymore. I wont smile at him when i see him. I wont cry myself to sleep because he couldnt value me and treated me like a toy. Im so not like this. Im so stubborn and i dont let people treating me badly so why am i like this with him? Because i cared too much and he doesnt care at all. And thats what hurts the most. The fact that im hurting and hes doing just fine without me. That he doesnt miss me at all. Every moment we spent meant nothing?
Honestly i deserve better. He doesnt deserve me at all as long as he cant understand what he feels. He has to learn how to treat a girl right. Maybe he knows but he doesnt like me so he doesnt even try but im done. I wont settle for less than i deserve. I deserve love, effort and caring. I deserve someone who deeply cares about me and wants to know me. Someone who sees a future with me. Someone who spoils me with little surprises and love. Someone who only looks at me like im the only girl in the world. The worst? I had that someone. I had an amazing boy but couldnt keep him because i changed. Now im back at falling for fuckboys. But ill be fine. Ill find THE boy.
If you’re in a similar situation, trust me, if he/she doesnt put effort in your relashionship, if you think youre not getting the love you deserve or if you’re always the one who tries and texts first, move on. You deserve better and you can find better. Picture your ideal person and dont settle down for less than that thought. Because that person is out there. And youll find her.
Dont waste your tears with someone who is doing just fine without you. One day someone will love you so much you’ll understand why it didnt work out with anyone else. Because it wasnt meant to be and something better is coming your way. Be patient and dont text him/ her! Dont waste your time trying to make something that isnt meant to happen. It wont happen because you deserve better.
Im also trying to understand this.
Lets go, we can do better!!